Night Shift

I have been working night shift for 3 years now. I switched to nights when Emma was 18 months old, because we lost our babysitter at that time. Things were good for a couple of years. But, now, nights are definitely getting the best of me.

I am working Friday and Saturday nights now from 7p-7a and one night during the week from 7p-3a. I am exhausted all the time. My body so wants to sleep during the day. I find myself falling asleep when Emma takes a nap and then sleeping for a couple of hours when Shawn gets home from work at around 4:30pm. Then, like last night, I am up until 3am. That turns out to be a problem when your child gets up for the day at 5:55am.

So, this has turned out to be a perpetual cycle that I am in. It is miserable. Shawn complains that I sleep all the time, when in actuality, I am just sleeping in 2 hour shifts throughout the days of the week. Something has got to give. Dayshift is not an option for our life. So, I need to figure out a way to get myself on a better schedule.

I want to have the energy to do the things with Emma I used to do. She is getting so used to hearing, "Mommy is tired." I don't like it one bit. I don't want that to be her memory of growing up. I don't know what the answer is.....but hopefully I'll find it!